Sunday, July 10, 2005

10th july. haiix.
supposed to b a happy & special occasion.
but i'm not feeling the kind of happiness i'm supposed to feel.
all cus of him.
i wan to b angry w him.
as much as i noe i shd b understanding, i jus cant hide my real sad feelings.

woke up dis morning at 7+am to take my medicine, cldnt get back to slp after tt. really really really felt the heartache. blOody shiT.. started cRying uncontrollably.. i din wan to cRy, cus i haf flu at the same time.. crYing will only worsen my already-blocked nose.. but its juz beyond my control.. 2dae means alot to me. well, i noe it means alot 2 him also, n he din wan it to b lidat also.. arh, so shItty.. though i dun wish to say it but it really sucks. wana flare up at him. but i dun tink i will. jus cant do it i guess. shall wait for my temper to cool down bah.
oh well, he wun b reading dis nwae.. he has no time. n i tink hes even lost my blog add. wadever. i din type dis to let him see it nwae. so irritating. i'm gg to get mad at him 2dae~ i'm not gg to fren him todae. kick him**

='( damn sad cus he broke my heArt thou' he din mean it.