Thursday, July 28, 2005

i could see her losing herself since she entered JC.. her old bubbly cheerful self is gone.. it kinda hurts 2 see her feeling so unhAppy & irritated all these while.. shes talked 2 me abt most of the stuff.. i tried to show empathy.. i noe she needs a gd listening ear, i tried 2 b one.. but i duno wad else 2 do besides looking at her and listening 2 her speak while shes cRying.. i alwis haf no tissue 2 =x and i duno wad i shd say.. sumtimes jus say smth crap 2 make her smile.. i rem shes the one who really makes me LOL when i was crYing so haRd on the bus last time.. yes, i guess shes the only crappy girl who can do tt..

but recently, all i see is her nose tts grown red after all the holding back of her tears, her swollen tireD black eyes =( i noe shes under LOTSA stress, in fact i tink everybody is.. but i guess her degree of stress is much higher than us.. she tried 2 luff w us in school, but sumtimes when she cldnt take it, she'll really quieten down..

dis isnt her old natural self.. the environment has changed her soOOooo much.. she used 2 haf so much fun w almost every1 ard her.. but no longer now. she prefers 2 b isolated at times, well i do too but i guess shes really tinking thru' of mani mani things, things tt make her despondent.. things tt break her hEart.. things tt make her feel tt her effort and all tt shes done is all wasted n unappreciated.. things tt makes her upset over and over again.. things that she'll nv 4get.. things tt r so hurting tt she may even sumtimes refuse to tell me.. things tt she feels irritated n fed up.. things tt she hears which discourage her from working hard.. things tt sound so unsympathetic.. things tt put her down.. things tt jus makes her cRy..

dis entry is dedicated 4 her.. pls, b happy! i still prefer ur old usual self..

jus a note: hope dis sat's ndp rehearsal will turn out well.. will b mass signing w the rest of the ppl.. wish us luck! n all the rest of the ndp participants too~ =)